Puppy08's World of Thoughts

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

I've already put down my pride & principles and tried patching up with you. But the response you gave me is like so shit. Mind you, it's not me who's in the wrong so stop thinking that I'm ill-treating you or I'm just an arrogant freako. You're the one who betrayed me first. Leaking out my 'secrets' and gossiping about me behind my back. I really HATE that. Don't say that it's just a peanut matter but have you ever think that it may not necessary apply to me as well. I don't care who you leaked out to but in my point of view, leaking out my secrets = betraying me; trust broken. That time, I really hated you like hell. I really dislike the feeling and acknowledgement of being betrayed by a friend (which happened to me in sec sch before). I've already forgotten that feeling until you aroused that feeling in me again. Don't say you're disappointed with me or what cos before you feel that, I've already felt that long before you. I'm utterly disappointed in you the moment I found out that you've betrayed me. To think that I've been treating you as someone who I can confide to after interacting with you and building a considerable level of trust in our friendship for a few months, never have I thought that you are actually a person who will pierce a knife into my back (aka backstab). Even if you're concerned about me or what, why can't you do it in another way instead of betraying me.

I've tried to forgive and forget cos I see no point in holding grudges against you over such a 'small' matter. 因为我已经看开了。It may once be a big matter to me, but I've already tried letting go of it. Because we've had quite an amount of happy memories and outings for the few months you're in Aust which overshadowed unhappy memories, so I decided to take the first step to talk to you - even apologise to you even when I'm not totally in the wrong. Maybe yes, when I gave you cold shoulders without telling you what you did to make me treat you in that way (which I did on my blog). But anyway, I still apologised. What about you? Instead of feeling apologetic for what you've done, you reacted in a manner which shocked me. I'm not saying that you should feel very sorry to me or 必须跟我低声下气。But at least show some signs of sincerity or whatsoever. The way you reacted is like 'I don't give a damn to you' or rather, I've done something very wrong to you and needed your forgiveness. Whatever lah. If you don't see the need to for us to keep in touch or in other words, have me as a friend, so be it. Let me know and I won't force you. And please, for goodness sake, stop asking 3rd party to get information from me to you - it doesn't help by getting w to approach me on what exactly happened between us. If you have anything that you wanna find out, just approach, call me. But don't approach me in a defensive manner cos I'll feel offended. Then don't blame me for giving you attitude. By the way, this entry is not meant to scold you or what, I'm just letting you know (if you still read my blog).

- Feed her Sugar....# ;

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Arghhhhhhh.....I need a break now! From all these stupid essays. I hate writing~~!! I want to go out and play... >_<

- Feed her Sugar....# ;

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Arghh.. Have been writing essay non-stop since yest and the day before. Woke up early around 10 plus (may not be that early but I usually wake up at 11 or 12 plus one.. =p) and started reading articles for my thesis. then started writing my chapter 1 which was due two wks ago. stupid lor.. I've changed my research question dont know how many hundred times, read thousands of articles on several areas of electronic crime. Sianz.. Other than my chapter 1 (1/3 completed) which I have to send to my supervisors, I still have another 2000 words essay due today supposedly. But knowing that I won't be able to complete on time cos I haven't even started on it until yest night, so I immediately emailed my lecturer requesting for extension the moment I wake up. Surprisingly, my lecturer was very lenient. He agreed to my request - extended the deadline to tomorrow evening, and told me to email him my assignment. That gives me 2 days to complete my essay. WoooHooo! But I didn't start on it until I've finished part of my chapter 1. After sending my chapter 1 to my supervisors around midnight, I've decided to cut and paste the relevant parts of my chapter 1 to my essay. Changed abit so it doesn't look exactly the same. Haha..

Well, skipped my lesson (last lesson for this subject) today to complete my assignment. Woke up at 11 plus and dilly dally abit. Didnt start writing till 2 plus cos I really dont like writing lor. So I took the whole afternoon and evening to complete my assignment. Actually I think I can finish it within a few hours one.. Just that I kept stopping halfway - walking around my house looking for food, watching drama series. haha.. But nevertheless, I still managed to finish it by 11.30pm today. 写到我腰酸悲痛。

Sad to say, this is not the end of my essay writing yet. I still have a few more to go.

Fri (25th May, 1pm) - Thesis Proposal Due
Mon (28th May) - eSecurity Technologies Assignment 1 Due
Mon (28th May) - Knowledge Management Grp Assignment(Submit my part to group members)
Wed (30th May) - Presentation Slides on Thesis Proposal Due
Fri (1st June) - Presentation on Thesis Proposal
Fri (1st June 2pm - 5pm) - eSecurity Technologies Lesson (Assignment 2 given out)
Sat (2nd June 10am - 5pm) - eSecurity Technologies Last Lesson
Fri (8th June) - Knowledge Management Individual and Group Assignments Due
Sat (30th June - Tentatively) - eSecurity Technologies Assignment 2 Due

Arghhhhh.... So many things awaiting me. Kns~ 我要发疯了! No choice, got to slowly complete each task one by one. 只要有恒心，没有什么是做不到的. Get what I mean? Nvm if you don't. Haha.. My chinese is becoming worst each day. =D Hai.. Gotta continue working on my assignments already. Till then, take care!

- Feed her Sugar....# ;